The First Time..

Today marks the first time I scared my baby 😔😢

I was feeding him, and The Dog was up to no good in the kitchen. I screamed at The Dog to stop whatever he was doing and COME.HERE.NOW in a tone that I knew would get The Dog's attention - and The Baby got so frightened that he broke into a loud wail. The type of cry that I'd never heard before.

I felt HORRIBLE. Oh my gawd what have I done!

I was feeding him a bottle at that point - we had a bottle prepared for some reason (he mainly drink from source at home). But to soothe him, I offered him the breast for comfort after he finished his 3.5oz from the bottle. I was so relieved when he latched on. Some internet moms shared that if babies got very scared of them (if you scold them for biting or pulling), they'd stop latching.

I think I needed the comfort as much as he did.

Haih...

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